I'm not going to sugar coat anything for you in this post. Struggles are real, and struggles are hard! As a Christian woman, I know where I can find answers to these struggles, but I don't always do that. I truly need to work on that. I need to seek Him, and get answers. I did tonight and while I'm still on my own personal struggle bus, His Word held answers that I desperately needed to hear. Along with hearing them, I need to apply them and live by them.
I'm not going to tell you all of my issues, but I can tell you that one of the biggest struggles I face is being tired. Generally it's a mental exhaustion that is caused by my tendency to overthink almost everything, over analyze things, take on too many things in an unrealistic amount of time... I think you get the drift.
I wrote before about spending mornings with God, and I've even struggled with that. I hit a wall, and it was brutal. I went into self-help mode and that did not work. I need to get back to my mornings with Him, but also turn to Him when I face trials throughout the day. Seek His Words and answers, not try to find my own way to solve everything. It seems like such an easy thing to do, but somehow is incredibly challenging. Even when I do my morning devotional and quiet times, I find myself struggling in the afternoon. I will say a prayer for help, but not dive into the Word to see what He specifically has to say on the subject, and believe me, He's got things to say about them all!
Let me tell you what He says about being tired, "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."- Matthew 11:28-30 Isn't that beautiful? I say that about a lot of verses, but it's true for all of them. His words are beautiful, and written for us. His Word says that He will give us rest, and that if we take up His yoke, we will find that it is easy and His burden is light. Who wouldn't want a light and easy burden? We can have it if we just give up our control to Him. Easier said than done, but something I'm going to do my best to turn it over to Him and to not only slow down in the mornings, but carry that throughout the day, too.
I also want to encourage you to talk to someone when you are struggling. It can be so hard to let others in, but they won't know unless we tell them. We can be moody or secluded, but neither of those helps, and sometimes what really helps is talking to someone you trust with your weaknesses. That's also a lesson I'm learning rather slowly...but hey, I'm a work in progress.